Dog Paddling

That's right, I am dog paddling!
I have decided that I am not going to let satan try to convince me that I am going to drown, but instead I am holding my head above water & continue PRAISING HIM for bringing my son home........
I was telling my friend April just last night that for weeks now when I pray, I don't ask God to bring Zane home, but I specifically praise Him for giving us our Decision of Adoption, and praise Him for our Invitation to Travel, and praise Him for our Giving & Receiving Ceremony & most importantly I have been praising Him for bringing Zane home where the very first thing we are going to do is dedicate him to God.
I went to bed with the thoughts of our conversation on my mind last night & when I woke up this morning, the first thought that entered my mind was "you need to put I Will Praise You In This Storm by Casting Crowns on your blog". It was almost as if the Holy Spirit had directed me to do this and I truly beleive He has.
Anyway, I told Daniel & April both today that I was applying for our visas today. I felt that today was the day to do this & we had always stepped out on faith and I felt strongly that we should today and no matter what we had to PRAISE HIM.
I got off the phone with April and went to the post office, I must admit I was a bit nervous about mailing off our passports and that $440 for visas, so before I sealed the envelope I just prayed and asked the Lord to let me be doing the right thing and I was going to just praise Him for bringing Zane home. I paid the $476 (yikes) and left the post office. As soon as I got in my jeep I turned the radio on and "I Will Praise You In This Storm" had just started playing.
I just thanked God for giving me this sign today. I know it was from Him and I know we are doing exactly what we are suppose to be doing.
So yes, I am dog paddling! I know the next few weeks are going to be difficult because the waiting is so hard, but I am determined to keep my head above the water & PRAISE HIM!

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say “Amen”, and it’s still raining

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth
I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

I’ll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I’ve cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm